I’m caught in suspension

I still feel quite groggy because me and clang stayed up late last night to watch two episode of PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN Ohhh, Yamapi goodness ^_^ And of course we were talking about “emo” and “acads” stuff , just because. Its so fun having someone sleep over fellow-Yamapi-fangirl, lets do this again. LOL   And wow, Clang introduced me to two bands today : Mae and Death Cab for Cutie. Effing awesome music!! Woot XD      Amidst all this happiness, i think i NEED  a good cry Probably, I’m just thinking and expecting too much about everything, its in my nature.  T_T So not good  But….: 

 

 

 

 

Now, 

I’m wanting this for sure

and I’ll beg for nothing more.

I’ll plan all day and drive all night 

you’ll love what’s in store.

I can’t seem to stop this now

even if it’s not so clear, 

and I’ll take what I can get.

If you want me here (If you want me here) 

 

~ Suspension by Mae 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Say anything, but say what you mean.  

 

 

 

(*shots herself. Still have biochem reporting in a while! FOCUS! )  

 

White Day

 

 OMG! I forgot to greet people. Its HAPPY WHITE DAY everybody! 

 

 

I know its not really a big deal here in the Philippines, but me and my japanese-crazy friends still think this day is still meaningful. Although, i think i just so failed today because i forgot about it and was only reminded when i saw my friend’s stat message in YM Oh my….

 

 

( I got a cute little gift though. XD ) ^___________________^ Thankies.  

 

 

Forgot? God, i was just so stressed out since late last night. I was studying for our Stat long test ( Oh my, i think i just flunked that one. T____T ) and I still had to do a PHILO paper ( our last one for this sem, maybe forever under Sir Tolentino. huhu ). I wasn’t able to start anything last night and only started to read the freaking readings/notes and stuff TODAY. @_@ Fortunately, there was no philo and i was still able to cram . But still…. ACK..SOUP!!! 

 

 

Oh yeah, i so miss cosplaying for some reason It has always been my number 1 frustration since God knows when…. it’s like i can’t devote most of time to what i love most because of school

 

I also miss BURGOO CHEESECAKE!!!!! I want one like NOW. T_______T  

憎悪

Can you just feel the hate?…. 

 

 

I have reached my limit. This time, i wouldn’t even care anymore. 

 

No freaking way.  

<3

” I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift 

And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 

‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed” 

 

~ Alicia Keys- “Like You’ll Never See Me Again”

 

 

 

 Amazing.  

 

Train Rides

 

Cakes

 

Siblings

 

Baby Pictures

 

Seafood

 

Pasta

 

Cute critters 

 

CHEESECAKES

 

“Fats”

 

Bookstore

 

 

 *Happy mode*. 

 

 

 

Don’t get me wrong, i have a LOT OF PROBLEMS, but certain events like these makes me feel better, even if its only for a while. <3 

 

 

 

 

 

 

lost together? I don’t mind.  

 

 

Missed

 

OMG. I freaking missed you guys, like for REAL. It felt like MONTHS after we last bonded like crazy. It still amazes me how you guys can transform a random day, a random break and a random place to something quite AWESOME. I never had a good laugh lately, thanks for that guys. It made the THREE FREAKING HOUR break, quite bearable.

 

and NO, i will NEVER be “GONE”. I can still bond with you guys whenever i want to. So dont be all “EMO” and shiz with me. I’m still HERE.  

He is the cheese to my macaroni

Oh finally, a GOOD movie finally came my way and made me HAPPY.  

 

I have been waiting for this movie ever since i stumbled upon its trailer and the connection that it had with Jamie Lynn Spear’s early pregnancy. *evil grin*. I actually had the DVD with me since last month but due to the hectic schedule with school, i wasn’t able to watch it So yeah, the movie effing rocked ^_^v The witty humor cracked me up to death!!! Too bad my “movie buddy” wasn’t able to make it , so i had to watch it by myself >.< ( Let’s watch another movie next time. lol ) 

 

Juno MacGuff: You should’ve gone to China, you know, ’cause I hear they give away babies like free iPods. You know, they pretty much just put them in those t-shirt guns and shoot them out at sporting events.

 

Rollo: Well, well… If it isn’t MacGuff the crime dog! Back for another test? 

 

Juno MacGuff: I think the last one was defective. The plus sign looked more like a division sign. I remain unconvinced.  

 

Juno MacGuff: I think I’m, like, in love with you. 

Paulie Bleeker: You mean as friends? 

Juno MacGuff: No, I mean, like, for real. ‘Cause you’re, like, the coolest person I’ve ever met, and you don’t even have to try, you know… 

 

Paulie Bleeker: I try really hard, actually. 

 

Juno MacGuff: I’m losing my faith in humanity. 

Mac MacGuff: Think you can narrow it down for me? 

Juno MacGuff: I guess I wonder sometimes if people ever stay together for good. 

Mac MacGuff: You mean like couples? 

Juno MacGuff: Yeah, like people in love. 

Juno MacGuff: Dad, it’s not about that. I just need to know if it’s possible for two people to stay happy together forever, or at least for a few years. 

Mac MacGuff: It’s not easy, that’s for sure. Now, I may not have the best track record in the world, but I have been with your stepmother for 10 years now and I’m proud to say that we’re very happy. 

 

Mac MacGuff: In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.  

 

 

 

WATCH JUNO, NOW!!!  Shiznit, i think i have an IRRATIONAL crush on Ellen Page ( lead female character ). She was just amazing in the film, she reminded me of MYSELF. lol. I mean, i was never the stereotype of your so-called “girl-next-door”. I am like her, “punky”, “boyish” and stuff. 

 

 

Super thanks for the long weekend, i so needed one!  I MISSED THE FREAKING TV!!! The people in the house thought i had a few loose screws this weekend since i spent a lot of time watching tv…. watching ANYTHING at all!! Amazing. I don’t even know when i would be able to watch tv again. HAHAHAHA 

 

Goodie, i finally got a book that i need for LS. “One Minute Millionare” by Mark Victor Hansen and its quite a LONG READ from the looks of it. XD But i think its interesting, i might get handy tips in the long run, so yeah, i might invest some time reading it for the book report.

 

 

 

side note: currently drinking my EIGHT cup of GREEN TEA and still craving for more. Addict, lol.  

 

quotes from the movie are snatched here: CLICK  

 

stuck in the middle

I seriously want to curl up just like that because i feel sooo sad about MANY MANY THINGS. I want to give up… and just stop caring about ANYTHING. But, i can’t do that in a snap of a finger, can i? XD 

 

But for those people who are STILL THERE who are helping me face the world still, THANK YOU. XD

 

 

 

as for You, I’ll try to smile still. Thanks for being there, like always. ^_^ 

 

 

 

 

 

p.s. pic by blankcontest from photobucket . not mine. XD  

 

 

爱

Wow. I was already awake at 4 am in the morning to fix my philo paper AND study LS  What a great way to start the “Heart’s day” Not to mention that i was super sick this morning ( read: fever mania ) and my eyes felt as if they were burning and they sting a lot too. XD   

Philo: “Nasaan ang mismong mabuti?”  :(

 

 That was our philo question for the “long test”. I don’t know if what i wrote in the paper were correct or not, i unconsciously “gave-up” halfway because i can’t focus anymore Oh, philo why do you have to be sooo complicated and consume 99.9% of brain cells left in me. Even though i didn’t enjoy analyzing the readings, i actually liked one of our readings by Neil Gaiman, “Babycakes”. Amazing work. With just 1 page, i was able to reflect a whole lot.   

“But we’ll think of something. Humans are smart. It’s what makes us superior to the animals and the babies. We’ll figure something out. ” 

 

 Cool. 

 

Instru lecture was still nosebleed as usual and i can’t focus much on the lecture since i was not feeling well and all, so i was day dreaming the whole time. ( about YAMAPI! HEHE )

 

Ohh, thank you Maia for the sweets!!! Strawberry Mentos rocks ( and the WHITE CHOCOLATE! – forgot the name though ) ! hahaha XD YEY 

 

The LS exam was quite ok, although i’m not sure with the second part of the exam since i wasn’t able to read the deadz xerox of Fifth Discipline ( i just read the slides. hahaha ).

Me, Arnel and Rands went to Caf after to eat ( i didn’t eat, just them ).   Guys, thanks for the CHOCNUT! ( favorite yeah! ) YUMMY! My gahd, so many girls holding bouquet of flowers and HUGE CHOCOLATES! HAHAHA Amazing, its as if those girls are already “marked” with an invisible sign: 

 

 ”I’M TAKEN” 

 

 I missed the “rose delivery” thing during valentines though. I think that was awesome! And the “harana” thing too, i heard they are already doing this for the girls. CUTE.  

 

Oh yeah, geez, i haven’t greeted everyone yet. What a shame. hehehe

 

 

 

HAPPY HAPPY HEARTS DAY!!  :D

 

 Sorry for the emo pic, im not emo. I just loved the concept! Amazing. The picture just nailed what I feel. LOL. And its artsy-fartsy, so yeah. COOL. ( image is from photobucket (myshooooe), not mine, ok? ) 

 

 ”Thank you silly boy, like so much “

 

 Ohhh, coolness. We ate Conti’s Sansrival cake at home with Tito Roy!! ( Thank you for the gift!, we missed you so much! ). Its so much fun to spend valentines at home! Wee~~ I missed this! Haha ( you see we never fail to spend valentines together at home, its a MUST! ) Thank you parents for the FOOD! YUMMY BBQ! YEY! hahaha 

it might not be that bad…because

Woke up REALLY REALLY late because i was feeling sleepy and all(slept at 1:30 am. geez). Not to mention that the usual road i take when going to school was BLOCKED this morning because its “Caloocan Day” and stuff. Why THAT freaking road anyway, of all places?! So yeah, imagine my surprise when i saw that, i immediately went back home and asked my dad to teach me another route to get to Katipunan. <– FAILS. Wee~ he made a rough ’sketch’ and i just wished myself goodluck. haha XD 

 

So yeah, fortunately, i got to Katipunan safely and…. right on time even. No traffic, yey.  

 

Nice to know that the review sessions are finally becoming more and more errr….”worthy”.

 

EMO Spongebob, FTW. I want one for myself!! XD I saw this picture printed on my english teacher’s shirt this morning. Wee~ It’s a cross between Gerard Way and Spongie Teh cuteness. haha XD  

 

 

 Oh yeah, i just realized that its BAD to CRY WHILE DRIVING. XD 

Note to self: STOP LISTENING TO “LINGER”!  

Happy Chinese New Year

 

Happy Chinese New Year! Year of the Rat FTW!

 

 We didn’t celebrate it that much although we ARE of Chinese-descent. XD Everybody in the condo were raving about it last night ( we are one of the few Filipinos living in the area ) and there were fireworks everywhere XD 

 

Fortunately, i was able to sleep properly amidst the noise. hahahaha

 

Med instru class is making me sick The topic is confusing XD I’ll be dead sooner or later. LS, on the other hand…errr, i don’t even remember because i was damn SLEEPY. So yeah, i need to read on LS soon as well! I feel so far behind already. HAHA

 

Had a biochem meeting after to discuss the topics needed for our proposal tomorrow. I love my group, yeah XD We shall survive this, yes?

 

 

While scouting MYX for “potential” new music, i chanced upon this!!

 

Its, “Hey Jealousy” by Gin Blossoms.

 

Not relatively new, but i think the music is so nice Dedicated to my cousin, Nik, who is going through the SAME ORDEAL as stated in the lyrics of the song

 

 

Coz all I really want is to be with you 

And feel like I matter too 

If I didn’t blow the whole thing years ago 

I might be here with you 

 

  

 DEATH, to HIM who is shrouded with LIES. Let’s burn him, eh? Please, don’t act like you are the most handsome guy in the universe, because YOU ARE NOT. Ok? Go and be happy with your girlfriend, LEAVE HER ALONE! I swear, one more of your “pogi tactics”, and you shall get what you DESERVE. 

 

 

Saw Chris Tiu before going home ^_^ Gahd, He brings sunshine wherever he goes. Light up the world, with just being there. LOL

 

 

 

 

OMG. WE can’t even talk. XD Tragic. Will this even work out in the end? XD